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Saturday, July 4, 2020

PANDEMIC FREEDOM

     I somehow years ago, I just let one little tax year slip by without doing my taxes. No big deal right? I kept saying to myself, "ok self, I will get to them next week." Well let me tell you how next week never came and turned into 6 years later. Let me tell you how my business got busier. How I stopped keeping mileage or how I lost an entire bag of 2015 receipts, that I thought I threw away. I eventually find them which motivated me to at least.....consider doing them. But life has a way of happening and nothing ever got done. I lost someone close to me in 2017 and they got put off again. The receipts in the picture are just the 2019 receipts and this isn't even including the bank statements, Paypal statements, Square statements, Car information or mileage. This also isn't including the hours of sorting, screaming, crying, or cussing while throwing receipts across the room because they have blackened during the extended years to the point of no legibility. I cant include this picture is too horrible to see.
   
Never again.
That is all I can say.
    Thank God for the pandemic. Seriously. If it wasn't for isolation, I would still be 5 years behind and creeping up on 6. As of this moment, I am on FreetaxUSA filing for the last time until next year. And 2020 taxes look like they will be easy as I am probably not going to be working the rest of the year. Joy.
    So I am in search of a new gig. A new gig that brings joy and happiness to the masses, or at least joy, or maybe happiness. Well something that at least pays my bills.
I was a waitress for 37 years. I could subject you all to my forgetful memory, my bad jokes, my inability to punch in the orders or clock in on time. And my specialty was forgetting the milk. Basically I could get a job and be like millions of other employees, or not since there are nearly 4 million people out of work. I cant believe the state couldn't fix that pot hole on I-5. I also cant stay on unemployment for much longer. That's because its running out. Yes soon all the people double dipping, working under the table, not claiming their income and collecting their unemployment, may have to stop purchasing all the boats and cars and toys they have gotten from free government money. No, I am definitely not bitter.........much. I know people that are pissed to have to go back to work, making more sitting on their butts. The vacation may not be over yet, keep smiling. 20 more weeks I heard? I am not sure if I personally can survive that long.
    And in all actually this time has been a good eye opener for me. I have become aware of mob friends, far left and far right on social media. I will not unfriend them. I will take a stand....I will be different. There are a lot of angry people out there. I am not sure why, they have a lot of free time, many making much more money than they would if working, and they get to go on a lot of vacations. Man sounds good. I on the other hand have been sitting, collecting a smaller portion of unemployment due to not having any records.....ummm, yea, no taxes done remember? I hate that I did that to myself. I am sure if I try though, I can find someone to blame. I have a list. Do I have a right to be angry, perhaps, but some rights and justifications are just not all that they seem to be. No I am not angry, or maybe I am internally stuffing the anger and one day it will surface. I hope not. No, I refuse to succumb to the norm. I will be me. I will be happy. I will be happy for them. I will be content, or at least I will pray for contentment, or maybe pray for them not to capsize their boats in the lake. That would be just awful. 

     I can see the good in it all. What a weirdo some say, and I think I am. Totally fine with me. This was a blessing in disguise. Somehow I got this time that was needed, but don't get me wrong, it was definitely not wanted. I make a good living doing face painting, balloons and henna at fairs and festivals across the state. Hard to do that when everything is canceled and the State is CLOSED. Yep, its 2020 and California is basically closed. Seems to be a battle going on "Pride vs Mask." I do love what I do, well mostly, except the screaming children that want butterflies while angry drunk parents try to convince "Trevor" that he really wants a Ninja Turtle not a pink butterfly. I love making people happy. I can also make them angry, its a whole lot easier. It does bring me a good amount of joy (not making them angry lol). But for now it looks like this career, if not completely erased, will be non-existent until at least 2021, or maybe later.
     So as I go into the second have of 2020, with my career on hold, unemployed, collecting unemployment like the millions of others, I have a new found freedom.......6 years of back taxes complete! Of 
course I will owe THOUSANDS to the IRS. I do hope they are gentle. I also hope that some of those friends and family, that bought toys, will take me out on those boats (because I haven't unfriended them). With the money I owe the IRS, I doubt I will be buying any fun toys for myself anytime soon.
















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